Great start this morning!

I got up this morning and went to work out! It felt really good, sweating and moving and pushing myself. It feels really good when I push myself and prove my own strength. Working hard on the tredmill is a great feeling! The funny thing is that it always seems that half of the tredmills don't work right. Either the tv's don't work or the tredmill itself isn't working. So it always takes three or four tries before I can start running. I've been doing intervals and I frickin' love it! Three times this week. But don't anyone get the idea that I like running, I just love pushing myself...but not for three hours. Like in the Ragnar Race.

Then this morning I had three small Kondik pancakes with a 1/2 cup or egg white substitute. It was actally really filling and I really liked it! I've been collecting healthy recipes and putting them in my Recipe Keeper given to me by Momma Bell. It's been fun to read the recipes that are heatlhy because it makes me excited about making them.

Well thats all for now. Loves!

How to handle stress

I'm going to be completely honest. I don't handle stress. This semester is kicking my trash and for some reason, this is making Weston angry with me because he picks up on my stressedness and starts snipping at me. It's really very annoying. I'm stressed already as it is. Does he have to get mad at me? Does that help? Absolutly not! But still, here we are in the living room arguing and not getting anywhere, at which point he walks away.

So here I am sitting on the couch not handling stress well, trying to study for two different tests and he yips at me and walks away. It's very frustrating! So my question is what the crap do I do about this? I've tried a few different things to help relieve stress and none of them really do help. If I try to watch a movie, I think about the homework or studying I should be doing. If I read a book, I can't focus on the words or storyline. All the normal things that you would do to relieve stress don't seem to work for me. So what do I do? I can't just go around being angry with everyone and pissed about the fact that I have to take biology.

On Tuesday I really wanted to quit. I was ready to drop my Biology class and just call it good. But I knew that I would just have to take it again in the next few semesters, so I might as well deal with it and get it over and done with now. But it doesn't change the fact that I can't seem to get the concepts that are being taught. Plus the class is in a hot room in the middle of the afternoon right after lunch. Really? And they expect us to stay awake? So I fall sleep normally every class for just a little while and then I try my hardest to understand what's being said in the class when I just fell asleep for 10 minutes. Also I missed two classes this unit, so that totally puts me behind. Since it's a Tuesday Thursday class, missing two classes is like missing four in a normal week.

I feel better about my health class then I did before, but I am still kind of worried about the test tomorrow morning. I'm going to go workout, then going to take the test, then come home and study for the test in Bio. I'm still kind of angry with Weston, so maybe it's a good thing that I won't see him until I get home from work on Friday at 11:00pm. I'm sure that is a horrible thing to say about your husband, but I'm not to happy with him and I don't like that he gets all angry at me.

Biggest Loser!

I don't normally watch the show Biggest Loser, but I started watching last night and oh my gosh!!!! I am addicted!!!!!!!! I watched all four episodes yesterday and a few from the previous seasons. I can't believe the way they lose so much weight in such a quick amount of time. But I have to say, for anyone that is watching the Biggest Loser, I had decided which groups I really hate.

THE RED GROUP!

That couple is so amazingly b*tchie! The woman is so horrible. I mean, there is competitive, but then there is just vindictive and viscious! In this last week, the red team won the challange and so they were given three disadvantages to give to other teams. Now that is a hard choice to make because it's hard to give people a disadvantage, but the woman...she was horrible.

The three disadvantages;
No access to the gym
No elimination vote
2 lb disadvantage

They gave the no access to the gym to John, the guy that had the bad knee. That makes sense. The no elimination vote was given to Mike because there were a few people that had said some not so nice things about him the last week and they didn't want him to get back at them by eliminating them. That also makes sense. But then they gave the 2 lbs disadvantage to the green team and those two women are insane!

But the part that I really didn't like was when they got into a huge fight about it in the gym when the whole group met with Jillian and Bob. Both Jillian and Bob had this like shocked look on their faces. But it was the green team has this horrible habit of becoming defensive and very agressive. They both don't every show their emotions and they feel like showing the emotion of sadness or pain is weakness. But when they are pissed about something, they diffinatly show it!

So when it came down to the weight in, the green team went last. The red team had been immune because they had won the challenge. So when the green team got onto the scale and they had only lost 7 lbs, the women from the red team was literally Gloating! She is a total b*tch!

But I am still very addicted to the show and I love watching the amazing leaps and bounds that they make.

Another Saturday

So my goals are going well, well...maybe not amazing, but well. I haven't read much in my scriptures. But I did go workout three times this week. I made dinner once this week and I thought about my novel, I didn't really work on it, but hey its all the same. But I feel like I started this year out well. So go team me!

A whole new year, A whole new...me?

The beginnings of things are always amazing. There is the feeling of possibility, endless possibility. Anything can happen. I could actually learn to cook. I could finish my book and find an Agent. I could loose weight. Anything. So my goals for this new year are going to be as follows:

Loose 30. lbs by August
Finish my novel
Learn to cook
Read my scriptures everyday

I went to work out this morning and I've started a counter for my weight loss. I'm going to track my weight loss everyday on the counter. Also my five year reunion is coming up, in August, and I really want to look my best. Hopefully I can loose the 30 lbs a lot sooner then August. Then I can keep loosing!

I have started working on my novel again. I wrote half a scene a few days ago and I'm getting all reared up and ready to go again. But of course that has to happen right when school starts again. But I am taking one creative writing class, so I'm going to be using my creative juices every day. But I have made a promise to myself that I will have it at least 3/4 of the way finished by the summer.

I just finished watching Julie and Julia and I feel like I really need to start cooking. Even though I'm not up to the Julia Child level, I want to start cooking. Plus I feel like I need to start acting more like a wife. I never cook or clean and I need to start learning how. A really long talk with Mom made me really understand that my responsabilities in the home are very important and that they will only get harder when we have children.

Every year my family gives Jesus a gift for christmas and every year I forget what my gift was. So this year it is to read my scriptures every. It's always really hard for me to read everyday. I don't know why because I love my God and my Christ, I should be able to do that one thing. I am not going to slack this time.

Go this coming year!

The Day of the Great Flood

When you wake up the day after Christmas, you expect your day to go as follows.

Lay in bed for a while
Eat breakfast
Play with presents
Watch movie
Eat lunch/dinner
Read a book
Go to sleep

What you don't expect is to hear your husband at 9:00am saying;

"Oh crap! Um babe...the downstairs is flooded."

Unless you've been in this situation, there really aren't any words to discribe the feeling you have when you hear those words. I came tearing down the stairs and sure enough, there was an inch and a half of water in the whole downstairs. Everything was completely soaked! I stared at the floor in shock. I really couldn't say anything. Finally when I came back to myself, I called our landlord. She promised to come over a soon as she could, but seeing as she lives in Lehi, UT, I didn't expect her for a while.

So Weston and I got started on moving everything we could out of the downstairs up into my office. At first we were just doing an assembly line like thing where he would hand me things and I would take them up to the office. But he was taking so long with some things that I finally got my feet wet, literally. We could only really move the blue armchair, the dinning table, and the cherry wood coffee table. Everything else had to stay because it was to heavy or to awkward to move.

Then to make the day even better, I got a call at 10:17am from work calling me in because it was really busy. I throw my phone down and kind of stand in the middle of my torn apart bedroom and have a momentary meltdown. Great, just great. Finally, I pull it together and I change and leave for work. It was amazing, because when I got there, only half of the parking lot was full. I could feel the angry trying to rear it's ugly black head up into my face. With the courage of a knight of old, I forced it down and went to work.

Now the carpet is all gone and there is an island of furniture in the center of the large room that we have to walk around all the time. We've pretty much been living at mom and dad's house for the last few days, which I'm am so sure mom loves. But Weston has been pretty happy because he gets to play on my fathers account for World of War Craft. Needless to say, I've been ignored since we woke up on this first day of January.

We do get new carpet tomorrow which I am crazy excited for! This place has needed new carpet for close to 20 years. No joke. It's greasy and matted down to itself, old and it doesn't clean well. Out of that though, I think it's the fact that there are like 3 different types of carpet in the apartment. One for the downstairs, one on the stairs and the hall and another for the bedrooms. It's a total mess. It has and does drive me crazy. We thought that maybe, just maybe, they would decide now was a good time to replace all the carpet in the apartment, but alas no. But at least we will have good, new carpet in the downstairs. That's a start.